(I Peter 5:7) casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you.
This verse just speaks to me today~ We got a call at 7pm to check on Cooper and to tell us more news. More heartbreaking maybe news. All I can do is put my strength in God and pray that things come out ok! It is not normal for a 7 month old to weigh 10 1/2 lbs. so why does my baby?
Strength is something that I have. I have been through so much with both of my kids that its all I know. But sometimes it is what I call fake strength, I put on a strong face and act like nothing bothers me when deep down my heart is breaking. Breaking to the point of where I cant even cry anymore.
I know God would never give me more than I can handle but sometimes I wonder why he trusts me with so much. I am thankful that my mother is coming tomorrow to help us a little. This new lifestyle is just a little hard to get used to. My husband and I get a night out together and honestly... I cant wait. I cant wait to not worry about syringes,meds,pumps, etc. A night to just get away and let my mind breathe and hopefully get some of that strength back.
I am so glad that you are getting a night out with your husband. I hope you are able to unwind, let your hair down, and have a great time. I also hope you can regain some of your strength. You were such a help to me when I went through what I did with Liam and I want you to know I'm always here for you.
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